The AMPIVIA in ME

The pride and joy of my Saturday

2012-02-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

It is not that difficult!

2012-01-31T13:42:00.004+08:00

Make someone smile today.

01. Call an old friend, just to say hi.

02. Hold a door open for a stranger.

03. Invite someone to lunch.
04. Compliment someone on his or her appearance.
05. Ask a coworker for their opinion on a project.
06. Bring cookies to work.
07. Let someone cut in during rush hour traffic.
08. Leave a waitress or waiter a big tip.
09. Tell a cashier to have a nice day.
10. Call your parents.

11. Let someone know you miss them.
12. Treat someone to a movie.
13. Let a person know you really appreciate them.
14. Visit a retirement center.
15. Take a child to the zoo.
16. Fill up your spouse’s car with gas.
17. Surprise someone with a small gift.
18. Leave a thank-you note for the cleaning staff at work.
19. Write a letter to a distant relative.
20. Tell someone you thought about them the other day.

21. Put a dime in a stranger’s parking meter before the time expires.
22. Bake a cake for a neighbor.
23. Send someone flowers to where they work.
24. Invite a friend to tea.
25. Recommend a good book to someone.
26. Donate clothing to a charity.
27. Offer an elderly person a ride to where they need to go.
28. Bag your own groceries at the checkout counter.
29. Give blood.
30. Offer free baby-sitting to a friend who’s really busy or just needs a break.

31. Help your neighbor rake leaves or shovel snow.
32. Offer your seat to someone when there aren’t any left.
33. Help someone with a heavy load.
34. Ask to see a store’s manager and comment on the great service.
35. Give your place in line at the grocery store to someone who has only a few items.
36. Hug someone in your family for no reason.
37. Wave to a child in the car next to you.
38. Send a thank-you note to your doctor.
39. Repeat something nice you heard about someone else.
40. Leave a joke on someone’s answering machine.

41. Be a mentor or coach to someone.
42. Forgive a loan.
43. Fill up the copier machine with paper after you’re done using it.
44. Tell someone you believe in them.
45. Share your umbrella on a rainy day.
46. Welcome new neighbors with flowers or a plant.
47. Offer to watch a friend’s home while they’re away.
48. Ask someone if they need you to pick up anything while you’re out shopping.
49. Ask a child to play a board game, and let them win.
50. Ask an elderly person to tell you about the good old days.

51. During bad weather, plan an indoor picnic with the family.
52. Buy someone a goldfish and bowl.
53. Compliment someone on their cooking and politely ask for a second helping.
54. Dance with someone who hasn’t been asked.
55. Tell someone you mentioned them in your prayers.
56. Give children’s clothes to another family when your kids outgrow them.
57. Deliver extra vegetables from your garden to the whole neighborhood.
58. Call your spouse just to say, I love you.
59. Call someone’s attention to a rainbow or beautiful sunset.
60. Invite someone to go bowling.

61. Figure out someone’s half-birthday by adding 182 days, and surprise them with a cake.
62. Ask someone about their children.
63. Tell someone which quality you like most about them.
64. Brush the snow off of the car next to yours.
65. Return your shopping cart to the front of the store.
66. Encourage someone’s dream, no matter how big or small it is.
67. Pay for a stranger’s cup of coffee without them knowing it.
68. Leave a love letter where your partner will find it.
69. Ask an older person for their advice.
70. Offer to take care of someone’s pet while they’re away.

71. Tell a child you’re proud of them.
72. Visit a sick person, or send them a care package.
73. Join a Big Brother or Sister program.
74. Leave a piece of candy on a coworker’s desk.
75. Bring your child to work with you for the afternoon.
76. Give someone a recording of their favorite music.
77. Email a friend some information about a topic they are especially interested in.
78. Give someone a homemade gift.
79. Write a poem for someone.
80. Bake some cookies for your local fire or police department.

81. Organize a neighborhood cleanup and have a barbecue afterwards.
82. Help a child build a birdhouse or similar project.
83. Check in on an old person, just to see if they’re okay.
84. Ask for the recipe after you eat over at someone’s house.
85. Personally welcome a new employee at work and offer to take them out for lunch.
86. While in a car, ask everyone to buckle up because they are important to you.
87. Let someone else eat the last slice of cake or pizza.
88. Stop and buy a drink from a kid’s lemonade stand.
89. Forgive someone when they apologize.
90. Wave to someone looking for a parking space when you’re about to leave a shopping center.

91. Send a copy of an old photograph to a childhood friend.
92. Leave a pint of your spouse’s favorite flavor of ice cream in the freezer with a bow on it.
93. Do a household chore that is usually done by someone else in the family.
94. Be especially happy for someone when they tell you their good news.
95. Compliment a coworker on their role in a successful project.
96. Give your spouse a spontaneous back rub at the end of the day.
97. Serve someone in your family breakfast in bed.
98. Ask someone if they’ve lost weight.
99. Make a donation to a charity in someone’s honor.
100. Take a child to a ballgame.

Bridezilla on the loose

2012-01-30T19:15:00.003+08:00

So its been a while since I went up to my brother's room to use his pc to blog.

I am still struggling how to mobile blog,so lembab.

Been busy with wedding preparations,Im trying not to bore ppl by updating them all here,so if u guys care to see whats happening on lower note,u guys

may go here, click!. :D

Mean while Im excited coz Im gonbe seeing this dude often now days due to the wedding preparations! Weee...!

<3 !

Spare time

2012-01-30T19:03:00.004+08:00

My 'diaper bag-look-a-like' Clarins bag with some skin care products given by dad .

'curi' some of my mom's silk flowers then hand sewed them on!

Ok fine,still look a lot like a diaper bag isin it?

Am fine with it I guess.

Hukum Alam?

2012-01-07T00:31:00.004+08:00

Girls+Boys

So u've been frens since u were kids,almost like siblings.Its been a while since u guys met,as usual u gave each other 'cheek to cheek' kisses + friendly hugs.

= " Hallo you're engaged.Sampai bila nak hidup social mcm mat salleh nih?Xde agama ke?"

Because we're black.

Oh,la..Bapak U negro ke?So die dari mana?Sudan?Africa?Die kerja ape mase sampai Msia?Yg jual tali pinggang tu ke?

= African Americans not that genuine with that 'Negro' title ok.Same like (no offense) Indians being labeled as 'keling'.

Fat ladies wearing plus size dress.

U pregnant ke?

=*blood cries*

29 years old woman

Hey after your wed kena cepat2 dapat baby tau.U kan dah tua nnt susah nak beranak!

=*flooded with moreeee blood tears*

Long distance relationship

Eee..You x takot die cari org lain ke?U tak tau lagi lelaki camne?Macamana u bleh tahan?

=Hoi bodohhhh!!

//Communication (e.g Skype, webcam, e-mail, telephone etc.), a lot of trust, staying positive and having hope. These are the important things which worked for our long distance relationship!

~Very the x puas hati bridezilla~

New year,crucial year its gonbe I know.

2012-01-05T12:37:00.004+08:00

Wow.

So its 5th Jan today.

Wow.

2011 was not bad aite?

For me it was kinna so-so.

Met new genuinely kind hearted frens,lost unworthy frens~Hukum alam.

Engaged.Wedding preparations.Budget!Budgetttt!

Heatlh seems to improve.:D

So its 2012 now,for real.

Someone's getting ready to hijrah to Perak.

Panic attack about can I be a gud wife?

OMG who gonna kemas our house?Mop the floor?!The dirty laundry somemore?

Me ah?

Arrghhhh!Arghhhhh!

Ah.Rilex ar.

So everyone's talking about resolution.

After few years of 'dunt give a damn' about resolutions,this 2012 I happen to have some.

MYvi SE Auto.

So if I happen to lost some KGs to my ideal weight by July 2012,Shakir's gonbe buying me one.In purple.~considered done.

Wedding.

Somethg sweet and simple.Where family,closed frens gonbe involves.

Lotsa smiles and happy tears.

30th June the solemnization date at my parents/mosque.

1st July Bride Reception in JB.

15th Sept Groom reception,Ipoh.

Home sweet home.

To decorate Shakir's apartment in Manjung as how he always imagine it.

Black couch.

Brownish plush rugs.

Green plants.

White frames and crystal jars.

Romantic lighting.

White cozy kitchen.

And an organized wardrobe.

To paint something on the canvas and frame them up for the walls.

Futher my studies.

Law that is.Went tru PJJ's stuffs aredi they seems promising..InsyaAllah.Rite after the wedding.

TheLil_Sweet in Perak.

InsyaAllah.Will continue the legacy in Perak.

Focus mainly in Wedding cakes/cupcakes tower.We're talking about new fresh ideas.Simple but exclusive,Ang moh style wedding cakes.Western's bakers inspired.

Dubai,Oman,Bali.

Honeymoon trip to close the year.

Bad habit to remove from me?

*to stop eating junks.

*to be nicer to mom.

*to do my own laundry.

*to be more organised.

*to mean it when I say 'no'.

*to stop saying swear words

*to stop being such a loser shopaholic

*to be a lesser pain in the *ss complaint queen.

*to be my self,only better.

Bday month

2011-12-22T23:57:00.005+08:00

December used to be my fave-est.

But it was blerrgghh.

The cake was yummy tho'.

Tht was the ONLY nice thing happened.

Hope there will be next December.

InsyaAllah.

Me and my toilet issues.

2011-12-20T18:36:00.003+08:00

So im a clean-toilet-freak.

My room cud be the messiest in the house but proudly Im saying this,my toilet is CLEAN.

Yah.I spent more money on Harpick,Dettol,Clorox,air freshener,etc,etc to achieve that standard.

And more time of cleaning the toilet bowl n floor instead of 'mandi'.

Why?

I just cant stand dirty toilet.

Yuckkk kuasa tiga.

Cannot stand big time.

I rarely visit the public toilet.

If I really have to,ppl around me will be cursing away as they gotta drop me at some 5 star hotel's lobby for my toilet visit(provided I have Dettol wet tissue in my hand),or we had to go home just for that.

I remember there was few times when we were on holiday,we had to changed hotel just because i dunt like the toilet.

During reservations,I'll normally ask vigorously if there's hand bidet in the toilet near the toilet bowl.If not,no.Im not gonna stay at that hotel.

And how much I know how my room mates (once I stayed in an apartment-hostel provided by Citibank) used hate me soo freaking much whenever I nag or clean the bathroom consistently after they used the bathroom.I cant even see a strand of hair.No.Totally cannot stand.

I warned Shakir he better be prepared.

Loads of stuffs to buy for the toilets only.

And the nags..

Feeling soo fat!No,I am Fat.

2011-12-14T23:39:00.004+08:00

I have 2 ex colleague wedding dinner to attend this weekend.

I have nothing to wear.

Dammit.Dammit.

I cant afford last minute shopping now.

Why.Do.I.Have.To.Be.So.Fat.

Damn blarrdy irritating.

Im missing the time where I can go to Manggo and pick up anything in small size.

I often found myself looking at my heels collections in awe wondering how on earth I walk,run,standing more than 8 hours in those shoes at work back then.

Why.Why oh my, why.

This is demoralizing.

I am now holding this Guess dress in M size I bought like 4 years ago that I no longer can fit in-In tears.

No one to be blame except for my self.

Oh screw me.

If only I can fly..

2011-12-09T11:38:00.003+08:00

I'll fly to this place and stay there just doing nothing.

Mid life crisis

2011-12-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

Its easy for us to console another person to calm down when they're having mid-life crisis.

But how do we console ourself?

We tell people things will get better for them.

But how do we tell ourself to stop worrying?

We advised people to 'redha','tawakal'.

How do we adapt that to ourself when its too hard to deny we're in deep shit?

Yes,we pray.

Istikharah.

And the answers is always showing us to stand up for what we want.

But having too much people to hurt if we were to fight for what we wants is the last thing we want to do.

As long as they're happy.

As long as they're happy.

Are you happy?Deep down inside?

Comes back to the advise you used to give to others;

Redha,tawakal.

Sumpah saya tak ikhlas.

Sebab saya tak happy.

As if they care also.

Nani's Cake story

2011-12-06T11:50:00.012+08:00

~Behind the scenes of Hanani Rahayu's wedding cake.

4 Layers of Chocolate moist cake with Nutella fillings,ajoined together into a fab tower.

Cake size : 7 inch

Weight at the moment : 3.1 kg

Covered with my secret recipe chocolate ganache.

Carved,scrape,and scrape it up with plastic scrappers,spatulla and hot knifed(after drying for 1 hour) into a perfect shape(perfect fondant cake,must have perfect cake inside!) and smooth surface.Spent 45mins for this. <3

Cake then being dry overnite. ( 7 hours)

Weight at the moment : 3.3kg

Next morning,apply thin layer of boiling water for the fondant to stick on the cake.

Covered with fondant then shape it with 2 fondant smoother.

I spent nearly 1 hour to get the fondant texture satin smooth with sharp edges.

Ol skool.

Walla!The cake with minimal decorations.Gumpaste flowers,satin ribbons,pearl bead,crystal brooch and fabric lace.

Final weight : 3.5kg.

Height : 20.5 cm

Standard price @ Thelil_Sweet: RM175

Cake ingredients:

Sugar,Wheat flour,Hersyes Cocoa powder,Baking powder,Salt,Buttercup,Omega eggs,Water.

Fillings :

Nutella Choc spread

Choc ganache:

*Secret recipe of Thelil_Sweet*

Fondant:

Ready-to-roll Vanilla fondant,Satin Ice.

I personally slice the cakes to serve the family guests.Approximate for 30-35 servings.

Glad you likes the cake Nani,as u know Im not as professional as Cake Boss,but I did it with loads of love,esp for u..:)

All for (Puan) Hanani Rahayu!

2011-12-05T22:24:00.008+08:00

So I was in Melaka during the weekend.

Managed to pujuk my lil bro to drive me there.

All for Nani's big day..

I had a blast!

Wow.

Nani's married.

I met Kak Liza(Nani's big sister) and her adorable kids.

Met Ramzu too.

Managed to bring the mini cupcakes tower for Nani.

Ah, <3!

I dint really managed to snap photos with Nani and her

hubster,booo!

Quite bz helping out Kak Liza abit,at first I thought I cud never blend in,some more worry

about leaving my lil bro alone(he's not really gud in mingling around with pll u see).

But somehow I managed to give some hand..Giving me xtra time to chit chat with Kak Liza during the kemas2 time!Totally in love with her 3 kids esp lil Najla.

Those big round eyes of her!Eee...Geramsss okayh!

Nani was very kind to me too,she got us uber fine home stay not too far from her parents's place at Bukit Beruang for us to rest over night!Thx Nani I owe u loadddsss!It was a 3 bedrooms flat,with air cond,standing fan,L shape sofa,dining table and coffee set at the ha

ll.The house's quite spacious for 3 of us(My cuz bro came down from KL to join us at nite).

(middle picture-yours truly cam-whoring as usual)

So after 'checking in' into home stay,we went to pick up my cuz bro from Melaka Sentral, went back to Nani's again to see if there's anything that I cud help,just to find the whole family was kinna settling down(can see everyone tired!),I decided to leave early for dinner with the brothers instead.We plan to go to the Jonker Walk for some walk but I fell asleep in the car,so my brother choose to stop by at some mamak to 'da pao' food for dinner (and Tutti Frutti).

I was still tired and weak when I wake up on the next day(Sunday).Once checked out,visited

Nani for the last time to say gudbye then drove to Dataran Pahlawan for lunch(Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa) {ok,Ive officially nick named Melaka town as Bandar Traffic Jam okayh!}

We spent almost 2 hours for parking!URgghhhhh!

So to Hanani Rahayu and hubby,congratulations guys!

Thx for everything.

*Hugs*

We shall gather again to celebrate you-know-what. :D

To Kak Liza, thx for everything.

Esp for the hospitality.

I tell you,once we become jiran after my wedding later,mmg siap la anak2 mmg selalu nak kena kidnap dgn Anty Amp and Uncle Shakir..:D

*Hugs*

Yang di tatang bagai minyak yg penuh..

2011-12-02T10:12:00.010+08:00

RIP Thundercat.Kakak n abang (shakir & I) sayang you so much!

New born (Thundercat's on top)

...With his brothers.Thundercats' in the middle-always the blur one.

He's quite in-active compared to the brothers.

Sleep tugging to his twin bro,Mcgyver.

Always been abang & kakak's gud boy..

Starting to show he's sick.Not active at all,refusing milk,drinks even food.Sleeping and laying down quietly all time.

At the vet.He's hardly breathe and weak.

Taken seconds after he took his last breath.

According to doc,he's suffering from lots of disease..Worms in stomach believed gotten from his mother(who died not long after she gave birth to him),asthma,gastric,phenomea-all due to lack of 'mother's milk'.

We did our best to save him.

Latest update,his twin brother who's with my friend Sery now,also suffering with the same syntoms.Praying hard for him*

*Heart broken into million pieces*

Awan Nano

Lihat ke arah sana

Serakan warna dan berarakan

Awan

Pabila terik panas

Segera hadirnya memayungi diri

Pabila kau dahaga

Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya

Pabila kau katakan

Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano

Setia melindungi diri

Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi

Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano

Sering saja tak terduga hadir

Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihnya

Kasih tiada banding

Setia tiada tara

Bagaimanapun jua

Awan kekasih sebenarmu sayang

Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Lihat diriku ini

Yang sesekali pernah kau bagaikan awan

Sehingga tak mungkin terlupa

Berikan belas sedari dulu

Sehingga tak mungkin termampu saksi

Setitis pun air matamu kasihku

Sehingga kau katakan

Akulah awan itu yang kau rindu

Akulah awanmu yang sedia

Melindungi dirimu tika panas mencuba menggores pipi

Dan bibirmu

Akulah awanmu yang sering kau rindu

Dan tak terduga hadirmu walau tak tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku

Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara

Bagaimanapun jua

Aku pelindung dirimu sayang

Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Begitulah awan nano

Setia melindungi diri tika panas mencuba menggores pipi

Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano

Sering saja tak terduga hadir

Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku

Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara

Bagaimanapun jua

Aku pelindung dirimu sayang

Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

The wedding issues

2011-11-30T10:11:00.006+08:00

*Date - Confirm

*Theme - Set.

*MOH - Deal.

*Caterer-Kinna figured out already.Waiting for Shakir to approve.

*Bridal - short listed the best 2.Waiting for Shakir to decide(Yes he's the big boss,and very fussy!)

*Door gifts - Sorta got it.We're going economy on this.

*Wedding bands - still searching

*Hantarans - 50% done.

*Attires - Waiting.For.Shakir.To.Approve.Haishhh..

*Make up artist - Done.

* Official Photographer - Shakir's choice.

VENUE.

Home or dewan.

We're in deep shit.

Sick

2011-11-26T19:31:00.004+08:00

So they said never compare your life to other's,you dunt know whats their journey's like.

But I cant help it I wish,I am some else now.

I cant seems to hold this any longer.

Physically,mentally sick.

Im in pain,emotionally hurt,blesses with low self esteem and FAT(How insulting when ppl around choose to tease)!

And having no one to turn to.

Pain,pain,pain.

Cerita kosong.

2011-11-16T13:10:00.003+08:00

Wednesday morning.

White coffee and home made wafer with low fat choc syrup.

Wanna have some break today.

I only slept 1 hour plus from Friday to Monday for the caking job.Yes...I was like zombie!

Its was weddingsss week and I had a corporate job on Monday for Iskandar Msia.Alhamdullillah all done nicely!

Monday nite after done with all Iskandar Msia thingy,went straight back home,wash my face and kaaaboom!I slept from 9pm to 10am the next morning yaw!Hahahah!Puas hati okayhhhh!

So yesterday spent the day cleaning up the baking station yg dah macm chocolate factory meletup,did my laundry,clean up my room,shower my cat, and reply all emails.Tired!

Went out for dinner with my lil bro and we had nice Nasi Ayam Penyet and drinks. :)

And today,yah I just wanna chill or maybe just do some cake toppers for Friday's order.See la if Im in the mood.

Going for 'Immortal' today, again with my bro and his frens.

I love my bro's and his fren's company but to be honest its starting to irritates me when ppl think my lil bro is my boyfren and ask if we want a 'couple sit'!

And my sis keeps on telling me I need to grow up and hang out with real frens not with my brothers frens!

Kawan2 I semua dah kawin ok mana bleh nak lepak lagi.

Ceh.

Its the day.

2011-11-11T10:37:00.003+08:00

Happy 11.11.11 sayangsss!

A bit more to go to 2012.

My wedding year.

Half year struggle to prepare for it,and the rest to live in it.

Cant wait to wake up in the morning in that bear's arms.

Listening to his nags.(Yes.He nags more than me)

Only months to go to cuddle with Naufal.

To rely on dad.

To have my lil brother as my driver,plus to fight with him who make the most mess.To berebut hair iron.

To deal with mom.(She means world to me I have no idea why we quarrel too much we barely cant stay calm in the same room/space at one time)

To hangout with my sister.To share things with her.To rely on her.To listen to all her bising2 about whats right.To answer her too many questions why do I have to quarrel too much with mom.

To spend time with my beloved bff Raziyan.

Less than 8 months to go.

I cant wait to move in to Shakir's, at the same time I wonder am I ready to leave what I have here in JB?

~confused bridezilla~

Weight issues.

2011-11-03T13:46:00.004+08:00

So yours truly is a fat woman.Period.

When it was 70++kg ; Uh well,I gained some weight.

80++kg ; Urm.Ok,none of my jeans can fit into my legs aredi.

8 months to go for the wedding.

Bridals :"We had to custom your baju. "(Oh no!)

Parents : "Weii,korang dua ni dah gemuklah,mana kitaorg nak cari pelamin batu?"

NO Im not gonna blame those drugs anymore.

Its my lazy bum yg stop work out ever since I sakit.

Ok fine.

20 kg to shed in 8 months time.

I can do it.

Gimme that yoga mat fast.

Im going vegetarian.

Things you learn when you're planning for your wedding

2011-10-31T22:11:00.003+08:00

*Small budget = Pegi mampos lah semua your dreams wedding!Layan je la which ever bridal yg cukup2 your budget!Tu la sape suh x simpan duit nak kawin?!

*Its your BIG day! = NO.It's your mother's big day.

Ok dah malas nak pikir kita minummm dulu.

Fuck,fuck,fuck.

Major disappointment!

2011-10-31T20:09:00.005+08:00

So the people from SK Jewellery rang me earlier to inform they had to decline my order ( I was waiting for Shakir to come to measure his ring size-we're in the middle of converting the white gold to platinum) of our dreams laser cut wedding band.Its all due to the manufacturer has discontinue to produce the pair.

I almost cry.I begged.

No chance.

There goes our so call dreams laser cut wedding band,after searching all around,we found one pair that we both like but then...Effe.

Dear Raziyan

2011-10-30T13:11:00.007+08:00

We knew each other since forever you're already like a family.

One of the person who understand my strength and even my greatest weakness but never use that to insult me,who gets me no matter what(and NO I can never lie to you,you're a lawyer I know you always knew when someones lying!).

And I admire your positive attitudes towards anything since forever I knew you.

You understand who you are and what you are saying.(thats why you're a lawyer!I knew it since we were in school you're gonbe like that boss of Ally Mcbeal one day!)

Your determination to get what you want with your own hard work.

Your devotions for people that matters to you.

And how we share lotsa interests.You always seems to know whats good for me.

If someone ask who is one successful person I know personally that inspire me,I'll say out your name the loudest.I am always proud of you. :D

I hope the greatest distance that we're gonna face soon after my wedding cannot separate our friendship.(*hard cries* I cant imagine being there without you-our TGi treats,our heart to heart talk,pedi-medi,and lepaks)

Words could never tell how important you'll always be, just little things that you do,that are especially meant for me.Thanks for always been there for me,during my ups and down,sad and happy-all time.And for voluntarily being my maid of honor despite your hectic schedule and your big responsibilities from being a wife and a mother.I owe you loads!I'm so glad God gave to me someone just like you.

(the best picca of u I have.That I cud find.Ok,fine aku curi from your album.Hiks!)

Happy Birthday Yan,

So its your birthday and too bad I cant be there for you.Please come back to JB fast so we can go out to celebrate your birthday!

Happy birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to Raziyan,

Happy birthday to you!

(no dunt worry Im not gonna do the Marilyn Monroe's version anymore)

Love,

Your bridezilla bestie.

Poof,poof!Pom-pom!

2011-10-27T17:41:00.006+08:00

Ok so I've decided to go RED+WHITE VINTAGE for my Nikah(Solemnisation) ceremony that will be held at my parent's.

(FYi,this is my only ceremony,Im in-charge.Where I got the chance to decide what I want,and how its gonna be.The Wedding reception's gonbe Mom's and sis's 'acara' so after all the arguements,I raised up my white flag and let them decide on everything for it.Lantaklah.What I know I want to choose the make up artist and the dress personally.Period.Yah,yah lucky ME I know)

Mom and sis laughed when I mentioned 'Vintage in red and white' as for them when it comes to vintage it has got to be flowerish pastel or English multicolors with country touch.Then why not we try something out of the box rite?I'm sure its gonbe nice.Or different.In a good way.

So going vintage meaning we have to DIY in loadsss of area so that my pocket wont hurt.For the beginning Im thinking of making my own pom pom in different sizes for the pelamin and canopy.Tulle material wud be nice I guess(those tissue or papers mcm susah? and not so weather friendly).So since my guests gonbe among my close family and frens,guess I dont need to that many..

Check this out,super lovely aite?

Cant wait to start making them!

~dancing bridezilla with pom-pom berangan cheer leader!~

Love Week.

2011-10-22T14:36:00.005+08:00

Its been almost a week since Ive been away from home.
I met him after quite a while now rasa mcm x nak balik!

Packed my Deuter Im coming home.
Im gonna miss this place.

Sabar..I'll be back for gud in 8 months time solid.

:D
~one happy in love bridezilla~

25 random things about me that u (maybe) wants to know~!

2011-10-20T14:42:00.006+08:00

1.Shakir and I got engaged few months ago.A small ceremony between 2 family held at my parent's.

2.We decided to keep it low on the wedding date.Only closed ppl knows.Yg lain2 later we distribute wedding invites yah!

3.When I was a kid,I thought babies comes from hospital.Each time mom came back from hospital for her check up when she was carrying my lil bro,somehow her tummy got bigger.So I got the ideas which it was the doctors who jap somethg into her tummy to make it bigger.

4.I used to have this boy from primary school who like to chase me,grabbed my stuffs away and pulled my long hair so often.Since then I always thinks boys got some kinna gender issue;maybe they're jealous with girls as we have soo much fun with our girly stuffs.

5.I wanted to be fashion designer,back then.I still have few sketches of dresses and tapered pants and baggy lacey tops I made since I was teen(I was soo into the 20's style since I was 14 I guess).My dreams stopped at 20 when I met my first love who convinced me it was all craps.I regret it so much.He was such a looser.Period.

6.I have this biiiigggg crush on Mustafa Kamal the actor since forever!

7.I love fried kuey teow but only if my sis,Ieda cook them.Hate it so much when mom made her version of fried kuey teow.Bykkk sayur..eee...!My sis made it much2 better than anyone.Yumms!

8.Mom used to call me 'pencopet' when I was a kid.I used to love collecting coins,and stuffed them under my pillow.Any where I saw coins,I will pick them up and put it in my pocket.I remember my fingers was all swollen when she beats me after we went to neighbours and I took some of their coins on the cupboard.Now when I grew up,I hate coins.Will chunks them into my bro's car if I happen to received any.I dunt carry coins anymore they're heavy!

9.The most reason why I always kena scold when I was a kid- for beating up my sister.

10.I am an obese now.Yuck.(am trying hard to loose down this weight b4 my big day).

11.When Shakir first sings for me 'You and me' (by Lifehouse,OMG he sounds better than the actual singer okayh,no joke!) acoustically,I blurted out "Will you marry me?!" But I think he dint catch that.

12.I have this habit of expressing my care to my frens by saying "I care so much about you because I love you." I got into trouble,twice when I said that to a couple of male BFF.They both thinks I have feelings for them.Gila..!Rasa mcm sumbang mahram pun ade if fall in love dgn male bff sendiri .

13.I dunt sleep with pillow anymore since mom throw away my bantal busuk 8 years ago.The bantal busuk's life time was 17 years old that time.I can still smell it's soothing comfy scent.

14.I'm somekinna Marilyn Monroe's wikipedia.Such a big fan of Marilyn Monroe.I collect anythg Marilyn's;books,biography,mugs and hundreds of posters.Memorised all of her songs(recorded ones only) and know almost everythg about her.C'mon,I dare you ask me anythg about her. :)

15.I bought like 5-10 pairs of inner wears every month without fail.

16.I love wearing Shakir's shirt!

17.The reason why I started with TheLil_Sweet is to transform my love of arts into cakes.And..Because I heart cakes and thinks everyone shud be getting a nice cakes on their birthday.

18.I'll be very2 disappointed if my besties,Raziyan,Lis and Faridah x dtg my nikah day!

19.Raziyan,my best fren(shes more like a family already) since we were in school is officially my MOH(maid of honour).

20.I just realised I've misplace our love ring that cost RM4k.Shakir was rather calm when I told him but I know he's angry.

21.I have almost all Siti Nurhaliza's and Dayang Nurfaezah's and PussyCats Dolls CD albums.Not really a big fan actually.Worth buys tho'..

22.I think I can ballet.Im quite flexi,I guess.

23.Im a loyal user of Clinique.

24.I cud faint if a real clown stood in front of me.

25.I told ppl I have a youngest sister of 12 years old-my cat Babyana.

The bride's wedding journal

2011-10-19T13:21:00.004+08:00

Only first 5 pages updated.
'Date,venue,theme'.
And scattered sketch here and there how I want my dresses and pelamin to looks like.
And hantaran items list.

So many stuffs in my mind,I kinna have figure out in there how things gonbe,but have no idea how to documented them.

8 months to go.
My cuzen Zuliana said "pelan-pelan kayuh"

I dunt know how thts gonna work for me tho'.

Lotsa issue coming in Im clueless which one shud I go tru first.Seriously I dunt want to kena some panic attack when the big day comes.

~Procrastinator bridezilla

Babyana just gave me the shock of my life!

2011-10-17T13:11:00.006+08:00

OK.Ok...

Somethg freaky just happened.

I was still in bed and as usual my 12 years old cat,Babyana was making noise outside my room,wanting to go into the room(to her sleeping spot on my bed)She was banging,scratching the door and I cud see she was poking her legs,and peeping into the thin hole under the door.

I just ignored her.

Then someone called me,pick up the phone and while I was talking,I heard a sound like something fall and....Babyana jumped on my bed and gave me this weird stare!She then walked to her fave spot and sleep,like nothing happened!Just like that.

OMG.

How.Did.She.Breaks.IN?

Door,window all locked nicely.

Xde ceiling pecah okay.

Scary.

Shakir

2011-10-14T10:29:00.004+08:00

Ok I actually cried so hard thinking of;

*Images of Shakir in my head wearing white baju melayu with red sampin waiting for our akad nikah.
*Inai on my fingers
*Our cozy humble apartment with white curtains,brown sofa bed and black rugs at the living.
*Cooking his fave bfast.(He always say "Sayang,later kalau dh kawin masakkan ney nasi goreng kampung pedas2,nak tapau for bfast and lunch tau!Hari2 sama pun xpe,pastu letak nugget!" :')
*Doing our groceries shopping.Me picking up things stuffed them into the trolley and he's trying to put them back to the racks!
*Driving around Lumut in the rain.
*Walking together at the sea side.

Oh cepatlah June 2012 datang!

Sewel kejap.

2011-10-14T10:00:00.005+08:00

There will be a time I just want to sit and do nothing.
Stare at the ceiling and think of nothing.

Think of no one.
What they say.
What they think.
What they want.

Just blank stare.Not sleeping but just listen to my own breath.
In silence until you can her this 'iinngggg' sound in your ears.
And how your throat 'sinnnkkkk' (maybe because of the sore Im having there)
And the sound of your stomach.
Hmm..

Ive waste so much time pleasing people.
Why I call that as 'waste' because this ppl dunt really appreciate what I do.
Pembazirannnnnn!

Hmm..lama2 like this I boleh kena depression!
Pastu gila!
Pastu kena hantar to Hospital Permai.

Dekat je kot dgn rumah my sis.
Naufal can visit selalu.

But nanti kena 'electric chair' how?
eee..Tak nak! (gegar otak)

Rasa mcm nak mati je but Ive fought cancer so hard I dunt want all effort to go to the drain.
Or the coffin.
Ish.

Nak mati sgt mcm dah suci je from dosa.
Takot kot seksa kubur.Tu belum neraka.

Ok2 cancel.
Saya belum nak mati.

But ini rasa sedih,kecewa cepat2 lah pergi.
:/

Recent work!

2011-10-13T17:52:00.008+08:00

My first attempt of quilting cakes.Tak jadi. :/

Into this shades nowdays.Sweet..:))

Mini cupcakes tower for Bff Yan's open house.Blurry pics due to my empty stomach distracted by the foods on the table!Hiks!

One of my fave fondant cake for wedding cupcakes tower.Check out the aftermath pic.Drool.

Mini tower.Wrong spelling for bride's name.Bride's mom was not that please.Haishh..

Bulk order chaos.

Awww..My fb's profile picture.

Shakir and I sitting on a tree,

K.I.S.S.I.N.G,

First comes love,

Then comes marriage,

Then comes baby in a carriage!

Hiks!

To whom it may concern~

2011-10-13T17:46:00.003+08:00

Its sad,very2 sad when all you did is look for my mistakes.
Its hard,very2 to live,being under estimate all times.

In tears,I often wonder when will you ever feel proud of me?
I know I can only dream.

You always makes me feel like I dunt belong there.
You always make me feels like Im not your own.

I will never stop praying to Allah,things will change one day.

Torn in between;

2011-10-12T11:07:00.005+08:00

Rustic Wedding Cakes

(Soo me and Shakir!But dis-approve by moms!)

Flowery Wedding Cake

(Sooo romantic right?My likey!Opting for this as first choice,maybe)

Modern Wedding Cake

(again-my mom said "Mcm mat salleh sgt!")

Classic Wedding cake

(Awww....Wants this but I doubt Shakir will agree on this)

(All photos from SwankCakesDesign.com)

I have always knew.

2011-10-08T10:08:00.007+08:00

Being a bride has always been my biggest dreams since I was kid.

Sneaking into mom's closet taking any lace-y kinna shawls as my veils and any head bands as tiara then putting them on my head,putting on her white wedding heels,swirl and swirl around pretending like a 'princess bride' is nothing new to me.

And yah,I remember when I saw my mom's pearl necklace at that time I already know I want loads and loads of them on my weeding attire;pearl dress,tiara,earrings,veil,ring,bride clutch,on my shoes and every where!

Well I'm fond into pearls they're so me-I cant help it.

To die for.

2011-10-06T12:41:00.003+08:00

I still want this dress for my wedding.

With lesser cleavage expose,course.

Ok now tell me how many kiloss nak kena turunkan berat badan for this dress?

Anak Lembut? (Oh,my rojak post!Bare with me..Teheee!)

2011-10-06T11:45:00.007+08:00

(If this post happens to offence anyone..Saya mohon maaf yah..Sekadar renungan!)

So I baru ter'witness' my neighbour 'belasah' his son because that poor boy is..Well..lets just say lembut.

Salah siapa?

The thing that I hate the most when the father said;

"Apalah dosa aku Tuhan bagi aku anak laknat pondan macam engko nih?!!!" (while sepak2 the poor kid)

Hmm.

Anak itu anugerah.

Biar pun dia lembut.Atau cacat.

Jgnlah dihina.Jgnlah di seksa,dihalau.

Tak semestinya kita biarkan or galakkan juga.

What do u guys think?

~Well my opinion,hmm..Kalau kita ada anak/adik/abang yg mcm tu,maybe kita kena lebihkan ilmu agama to them.Try not to change them drastically.Man man..

And kita kena redha,doa,mintak pada Tuhan supaya beri hidayah pada mereka.

Bukan buang mereka dari hidup kita.They need us.

They also have feelings.

I do have some frens yg mcm tu.Yes,its sad to know some of them even have a 'boyfrens'.

Nauzubillah.

I wont tegur,apalagi nak menyokong.Diam je lah.

All I can do,is to pray for them,InsyaAllah one day dorang akan bertaubat.Semoga tak terlambatlah..

InsyaAllah..

*pray hard*

Ntahlah.Benda tak jadi kat kita kan,kita xleh nak comment byk..

Siapalah kita nak tentukan hukum dosa/pahala org kat dunia ni kan?

Henna?

2011-10-06T11:17:00.004+08:00

Ok,first of all I gotta apologize if Im making u vomiting blood with my wedding stuffs/craps post.

Well Im a bride to be,so..What else u can expect kan..?Bare with me pleaseee..:D

So.Henna..I remember on my sister's wedding day,henna was the last thing on her mind,it was last minute until she realized "OMG,sape nak lukis inai aku,duhhh..?"So we went kan cheong and bought some henna in a cone at the shop near the temple,and as usual..Benda lukis melukis nih jadi kerja akulah..It was simple one lah...Bantai je.

Then now its my turn to be the bride I asked my sister if she gonna do the inai for me,her eyeballs almost burst!Ok,fine.Kita pegi kedai je lah.

But isit really necessary to have henna art on my fugly hands?When I was about to decide that Im not gonna have any inai on my fingers,I came across this photo,Ayu Raudah on her berinai ceremony.

Wow.

Ok,now I nak inai okayh.

Nak sejebik like this.Can?

Lawaaaa okayh.Lawaaaaa....!

*faint*

(trying my best to ignore her gorgy Qudyn Aziz's shoes)

The thing is,where can I find henna art artist in JB to custom this design on my hands?Go survey lagi..Survey!

Oh,baby,baby!

2011-10-05T14:47:00.002+08:00

Oh,baby,baby's breath!

My obsession of baby's breath.

I want loadss of them on my nikah ceremony.

Hand bouquet,on my hair,table centerpiece,hantarans,pelamin..Everywhere!

Nikah ceremony shoes.

2011-10-05T14:05:00.004+08:00

Dilemma of choosing Nikah ceremony's shoes.

Between appropriate,common sense and dreams...

Mom's suggesting flat slips on for comfort purpose.

"Lagipun kita ni Melayu weii!Open-up your mind sikit!" (well she's not even a 100% Malay okayh)

"OMG,mom?"

See,told u ppl I can never get it.

C.Louboutin.

My first choice,someone's offering a pre-loved never worn pair @RM480

ChristyNg.com

Local,they can custom size.@RM180.2nd option.But I want the 'tapak' to be in Red like the Loboutin's.Sexy.

Jimmy Choo.Wow.

@ almost,RM2k.Shakir said if I want this so badly,no more designer bag for 5 years.Eleh 5 years je kot.

C.Louboutin.

Pre-loved never worn @ RM500.Urrm...maybe can consider for hantaran? Damn,check out the red 'tapak'.

Working experience @The Zon Hotel part 1

2011-10-04T01:53:00.005+08:00

So guys,I wanna share some stories about what happened when I was working night shift doing night audit sometimes back.It was not really a tiring job,I must admit.But having to stay awake when everybody is resting at home(working time was from 11pm to 7 am) ..Wah..Memang it was a real challenge!Some funny/weird/scary stuffs happened I must share;

*At The Zon Regency Hotel Johor Bahru(Lets call it as TZRH),during night shift not just we had to do night audit stuffs,but also as a 'night operator/customer service'.Meaning we had to answer calls from external and internal.Normally its still busy from 11pm to 2pm(knowing TZRH is a 'night spot' in JB,there's easily 10 pubs/lounge/entertainments center down there).So we normally received calls from guest asking this and that;craps mostly esp when they're drunk.

*Our office located at the 5th floor,a deserted room ar from the rest...And near to a long time locked room where lotsa ppl claimed some1 died in the room long2 ago,bad things happened they had to lock it to prevent moreee bad things from happening.Great.Scary.Sometimes we do heard noises coming from the room,but I ignore only lahhh!

*Thank God there's TV in the room.Normally I just watched my fave channel,TCS5 while doing my work.

*We received A LOT of prank calls!Mostly from those 'sex maniacs'!OMG they all were so disgusting!I almost cry when I received the 1st 'sex talk' call from some one I believe was an Indian male.Then after that I got use to it,So I just hung up each time I received the call.But,being getting too many calls from them,I mmg fed up.What did I do?Lemme give some example how did I kill my boredom by teaching them some lesson:

Situation 1

Caller :Hello

Me: TZRH,how may I help you?

Caller : I need to squeeze your boobs!

Me : Oh..nah.

Caller : er.(I think he was expecting me to hung up or freak out,now he must be wondering whats his luck tonite)

Me :Hey are u still there!?I think you've squeeze my crotch too hard!

Caller :*hung up

Situation 2

Me: TZRH,how may I help you?

Caller : Im reaching my climax..U wanna join(He was saying something like this in Malay)

Me : Okay.Cakap lah.Carry on....( i keep quite n let him say what ever he wanna say for almost 2 mins,damn this guy is seriously gila babi sey)

Caller :Hello are u still there?

Me:Yeeehaaahhaaahahahahayeeeeeehahahahahahahahhhhyeeeeahahahahah!(I imitate the pontianak style laughs)

Caller : hung up

#okay,I actually managed to scare the caller and..MYSELF!End up calling the room service guy for a company!

Situation 3

Me: TZRH,how may I help u?

Caller : I wanna f*** u so hard,can?

Me: Oh..wait ar..(I play up the Surah Yassin recite on our MP3 loudly until the caller can hear)

Ok,now you may continue sir.

Caller : hung up

Okay,theres many more actually but seem like I have to stop here for some sleep,will continue tomorrow okayh!

Gud nite!

Hello,yes..Im still alive.

2011-10-03T18:16:00.002+08:00

Hahah!Ok...As usual Im gonna say that Ive been too busy to blog.

No,Ive been too lazy.

Oh crap,Im sorry..will do update starting today,I promise!

Wah?Beraninya promise?

Well...(We have a wedding to plan!)

Hiks!

New missions

2011-07-07T16:05:00.003+08:00

+gotta stop stalking people's wedding photos/blogs.

+take out that 'procrastinating' from my vocabulary

+be nicer to mom

+be nicer to The Boyfren

+look for a nice job in banking line-again.I miss getting the RM4k by working 9-5 again.

+taking some break from baking.

+need to make a plan to sit down with The Boyfren,switch off our phones/lappy to make plan of simple a wedding.

+loose down weight-healthily.

+to be obedient to my medicines.

+stop regretting the past.

uh.

Why bother to dream big?

2011-06-22T02:01:00.005+08:00

Im restless, disappointed,confused-whatever negatives thoughts all there in my mind~like sticking there so hard no matter how much I try to remove it stayed glued almost permanently.

What do I do to deserve this?Why me?

A while ago I told myself to stop dreaming too big-NEVER they will come true so beware of that.

But my heart melt each time I saw some glooming stars.Without realizing its some freaking damn stars-too far for me to reach.

As usual I fall so hard-crashed and burned.

Yah.

So much for my happy ending.

And it will always end up to be other's,not mine,NOT MINE.

I can only try hard to fake that smile and congratulate them.

They're happy.

Over my sadness.

Treat for a lady that adore pearls as much as I do..:)

2011-06-20T09:42:00.008+08:00

Small cake for Nadya and Mukhlis..

So I was not there on their wedding few months back though I promised to bake for them their wedding cake.Some unforeseen circumstances came...

Then last week when my lil bro told me he's going to KL for some gig,

I asked him if he can bring up some cake for my fren-So freaking glad when he said "yes,why not" ;)

So I baked a 7 inch Choc moist cake and Vanilla moist cake,layered them in 4,filled in Nutella and Vanilla Buttercream as the fillings.

Fresh form the oven!Vanilla moist cake..:) Missed out to take a photo of the Choc moist one tho'..:/

Covered with fondant icing..

Flowered and ribboned it up..:)

And the finished product!

Glad they love it!

And this is the aftermath photo she sent me! =)

Dusting off the cobwebs.

2011-06-11T09:11:00.005+08:00

Okay,so someone's back for good.For good.Well though it doesn't really mean he'll be clinging around all time,I know he's gonbe busier than before as he's leading some kinna new project at work atm.But the thought of 'he's near' is simply gud enugh for fragile-ly me now.=)

So life has been too busy.Gosh I have too many caking jobs now I seriously thinking of taking some break from it. Has stop taking orders for summer tho'...Plus its gonbe a fasting month soon Im thinking of doing a proper job for a while.See la how it goes.

Oh,btw do you like this Vonda Shepard song here?(or isit too noisy?)I just found it,been a fan of this song since forever sey,(Ally Mcbeal +Larry romancing..Awww..!).

And check out the Wedded Monkeys Cake below..Lawa kan?Noo...Bukan saya yg bake yah..Ordered from my baker fren in Ipoh for our best fren's wedding,Fajrul and Yunie in Ipoh.They first want me to bake for them,but being no one to drive me there,had to decline their order.Then The Boyfren and I decided we shud sponsor their wedding cake then.Thank God Nuraine Tan is there in Ipoh to assist us-She's actually a cake instructor there/fab with her handmade flowers!And the bride and bridegroom said the cakes was yummy too!

I have so much thing to story morry here but gotta move my ass to do the cleaning of my baking station now.The Boyfren's gonbe here for lunch later so I plan to cook something for him.So better get going now.

Laterrr!

Show me

2011-05-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Sitting around the table

Learning the lesson of years

So far away in heaven
Someone is shedding a tear
Nobody knows, nobody knows
Who will pay,who will stay..Another day

Show me...Show me the light

Open the door

Tell me...Tell me I'm right
Show me some more

Dancing around the table

Watching the candles light up

Feeling the fire inside me
Moving my lips to the cup
Everyone knows. Everyone knows
When they pay,they will stay
Another day

Show me...Show me the light
Open the door
Hold me...Hold me so tight
Leave me no more!

Everyday shud be a moms day!

2011-05-09T09:44:00.003+08:00

I SAID I DUNT WANNA STAY IN KUALA LUMPUR,DUNT YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!!!

2011-05-06T11:17:00.003+08:00

I have no idea why I get mad easily whenever people(esp The Boyfren) try to pursue ME to settle down in KL,or even Shah Alam.Its not that I hate KL that much-I love visiting Kl but not to stay there.Never.

*I dunt think we can save money if we stay in KL.Esp for people like me.No.

*I dunt think its a good place to raise kids.Everything is there in KL.My kids will easily be expose to their 'suka berlagak kaya-siapa cepat die dapat-hectic' kinna lifestyle I freaking hate it.Its like you can definitely tell the different between kids that grew up in New York,compared to kids from Alaska.Ok,ok..memamg la different sgt kan the situation between New York-Alaska and Kl-JB.But Im pretty sure you people get what I mean right?

Hmm..Im sorry sayang for being so angry last night.I hope you dunt bring up this matter again as you know how I dislikes staying in KL.As I told,I'll follow you anywhere,but not KL sayang.Not even Shah Alam..

*love,hugs*

Until when?

2011-05-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

No one knows how it feels.

She used to cry out loud to declare her pain.

But someone asked her to stop-"Ape you dapat?"

"Empathy??"

So she stopped.Diam.

Sakit?

-Tahan.

Bleeding?

-Wipe it off jelah.

Ignore the pain.

She has to be strong.

Sedih okay.

(makan dalam)

My pearl obsessions!

2011-04-29T00:45:00.003+08:00

..Made this recently..

...Inspired by this shoe,actually.

Me so nak this shoes!

How inconsiderate can you be?

2011-04-27T09:17:00.006+08:00

Location : Tesco Tebrau City,JB

Time :23hrs

*a young lady bang my mom's kaki with her trolley-without saying 'sorry' or what so ever she gave mom a bitchy stare asking my mom to get the hell outta her way.

Me : Hallo,thats painful okay?

Her : Jangan la nak berdiri tgh2 jalan leh tak makcikss?

Me : Hallo,my mom's tgh amik brg okay?cant u wait?cant u even say sorry?Mother never teach isit?

Suddenly theres this lady appeared.

Lady : Eh,awak jangan nak kurang ajar dgn my daughter eh?Awak tu patut cakap dgn mak awak jgn berdiri tgh2 jln org nak jalan pun x senang.Dah kena langgar marah pulak.

Me : Oh,Im sorry auntie.I shud'nt said that to her.Its her grandmother's fault actually.Because she never teach you what 'manners' is.

Them : *walk off while giving me 'we'll kill you later' stare.

**********

Location : Traffic lights juntion,Tmn Perling JB.

Situation : A motorbike hits a Mercedes mpv from back.

The Mercedes guy rushed out from his car.

The poor motorbike fella trying hard to stand-with lotsa blood @ his mouth area.

Mercedes guy : Woi!!!Asal langgar ni?Tak nampak lampu merah ke?

Motor guy : .....jap bang,kaki saya sakit ni..mana handphone saya jatuh ni?

Mercedes guy : Sial ko!tgk calar dah keta aku!Ko amik lesen terbang ke ape?mata ko mana hah?

Motor guy :jap eh bang..sorry saye terlajak.jap eh bang.kaki saya sakit ni.(some people start to approached the scene and help him out)

Mercedes guy : hah nak angkat dia pegi mana tu?jom pegi balai!sape nak bayar keta aku pecah teruk ni?!!

(not that teruk pun okay-just a few scratches and some lampu pecah-compare to the motor guy's motor yg dah mcm ape terbalik and his injuries)

People around :kena anta pegi hospital ni..kaki die patah kot ni..

Mercedes guy :Arrgghhh...B***!!!!kereta aku camne nih!!!Sape nak bikin?Ingat murah ke?Pegi balai dulu aku kata..!!!!!!

Seriously?Seriously.

**********

Location : Rapid Kl train.

Situation : Me bringing my nephew to the zoo.From KL Sentral to Wangsa Maju-i think its more than 7 stops journey.

Me and my 2 and a half years old nephew were standing.Managed to get nephew stand at some corner and asked him to hold my right hand.We were standing tru out 3 stops aredi.Suddenly my nephew said "Cik Tan,Naufal penat..nak dokong!"

(can see dia dah sleepy,just had his susu during the monorail ride from Times Sq. to KL Sentral).

So I dukung him,and my other hand holding something to balance-up.

Naufal aredi fall asleep with his head on my shoulder,and I stayed standing like that some more trying hard to make sure we or the diapers bag tak jatuh for more than 5 stops's journey!

No one care to ask for their sit.

Everyone esp those whos sitting seems to try their best to avoid eye contact with me.

OMG.Serik okay dgn orang KL.

I sang this to him in my dreams last nite...:)) No,no....its was not The Boyfren! :p

2011-04-26T13:32:00.002+08:00

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty
When I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down
Whenever you're around

Can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
All that I can say
Is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down
Whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down
Whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

How I always wanted to have every pieces of him,all to myself.

2011-04-21T17:29:00.004+08:00

Matt Shirvington,Aussie athlete.

I met him yearss back,1998 during the Commenwealth Games @ Bukit Jalil.

Very handsome gentleman.Even now kan?

The Wedding false alarm-my deeply,deeply apologies!

2011-04-21T11:30:00.007+08:00

...so they said; "kita merancang,Tuhan yang menentukan.."

I am deeply,deeply sorry to all,to my family or even to my own-busuk-self.To those who has heard from me that I'll be having my wedding on early 2012;my apologies-The Boyfren and I had to postpone it (AGAIN) to any not-so-confirm date-or any year,any decade....due to some unforeseen circumstances.

Of course I'm mad about it.

I have every rights to be angry.

Nevertheless whatever excuses,what ever reasons..I accept with redha,tawakal.

I'm praying hard for Allah to give me His petunjuk soon.

But seriously,honestly..I hope everything will end soon.Im not talking about any beginning here ,but truly for an ending.

Im tired.

*sigh

2011-04-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

Tersentuhnya hati looking @ this photo..

Boleh dapat ke camni?

:(((

Never fails to make me smile..

2011-04-19T10:05:00.004+08:00

I tune in to Nina's channel daily,or mostly whenever Im down;as she never fail to make me smile.

I OFFICIALLY DECLINE I EVER KNOW YOU.

2011-04-18T19:17:00.003+08:00

I hate to do this.But when u're patience's level went up to the forehead-no choice,something had to done.

To whom it may concern..

Yes..I heard you.As much as I dunt blarrdy care how people badmouth about me-But I cant just simply take it when it was you who actually did it.You.Yes YOU.YOU jolly well know who you are.

Wayyyy before you continue asking around behind my back "Mentang2 dah senang lupa kawan si Iezan tu kenapa?" ;

Freaking ask this question to yourself;

*Of all the years we knew each other-have IEZAN ever forgot your birthday?(She personally at least bake cakes for u and had them deliver it to ur doorstep even just a half dozen cupcakes)

*During your big days(engagement,nikah,sanding,kenduri this la,kenduri that la)who never fail not just to attend but help you with all the chores?your hantarans?your cakes?running around here and there to set up your meja makan la what so ever?

*When you were sick,which fren help u the most?Who lend the cash fro you so that you can 'check in' in a private hospital?

*Who still loyally keeps all your dark secret?(do not worry okay-they're save there)

*Who still owe who's money?

Once you successfully answers all the questions,now let me ask somemore;

*Where were you during my birthday?Did u at least type 'happy birthday' on my FB wall?-NADA.NEVER.ALL THIS YEARS.I BET U EVEN KNOW WHEN IS MY BIRTHDAY.

*My big days-Huh!?Do u even care?Excuses+ disappear.Thats what YOU major at.

*My not so healthy moments-DID U EVEN CALL?OR ASK HOW AM I DOING?

NO!

*Damn i have soo much more to ask I just cant go on anymore..the tears flooding on my cheeks so hard I cant type anymore.

PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE.

YOU DONT FREAKING DESERVE TO BE IN IT.

In order for me not to be call as overweight bride...

2011-04-18T13:04:00.004+08:00

...found myself trying to combine this two designs into 1 white dress with pearl and black ribbon details.

Ok,first,I have to loose like 30kg in 8months time?

Fasting man,fasting is the solution.

New chapter.

2011-04-17T00:17:00.004+08:00

Dia tak dekat dgn aku.

Dia tak sama dengan aku.

Totally different.

Tapi ironically,our direction is going towards the same way.

Apa2 yg jadi,dia & aku je yg tahu.

Susah senang,dia selalu disitu,even jauh.

Rasa sayang yg sgt susah nak diterjemah,tapi aku faham. :)

For the first time in my life,I'm no longer confuse.

And willing to take this risk-tho' I keep on telling myself to play save.

I said yes to you honey because I believe in you.

We have a wedding,future life to spent together to sketch.

Mari tutup semua buku2 lama.

Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa

Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kita.

Pearly stuffs!

2011-04-12T09:41:00.004+08:00

I always wants everythg to pearls on my wedding.The next question is,will I be able to get it done the way I wants it?(Trying hard to nod my head when my brain aredi told me 'dream on'~!

2011-04-11T12:49:00.008+08:00

My jantung hati,Muhammad Naufal Aqil.

Some photos taken by my lousy phone cam during our recent visit to KL...

Berjaya Times Square Hotel was fab! Definitely will return!

Bitter Heart,of mine.

2011-03-31T21:22:00.002+08:00

Seriously,was I born meant not to have any of my dreams full-filled?

If thats the case,Im gonna stop dreaming now.

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

Facts.

2011-03-31T11:38:00.001+08:00

Beautiful cage, is still a CAGE okay.

Apa ada pada nama?

2011-03-29T13:19:00.007+08:00

So I thought I cud never get him any toys anymore once I decided quit my job and starts baking.You know,with all the medical bills and other commitments,buying him some McD ice creams is seriously the only thing I can afford now.

But this month turned out well.I only pay half of the amount that I used to pay for my medicines as the numbers of pills that I have to buy is somehow lesser due to some procedure I had recently.And I made almost to RM1200+ (minus all the modal) for myself from the baking projects.Alhamdullilah..Its not as much as I earn when I was working,but enoughlah to cover my expenses for this month,plus I had enough time for my treatments.

So we went to Tesco last nite for errands,Naufal came along.He was begging me for a box of ice creams,I keep on saying no,he just recover from cold,we dunt want that to comes again.So when we passed by this gift shop,he saw the Ultraman plush and he asked me if I can buy that for him,told him yes,only if he promised no ice creams for month.He said ok..And looking at the 20% on the price tag I just ask the promoter to bag the super hero and the naughty boy walks home with this huuuggeee smile sampai tido okeh!hahah!

Well on the other note...

I had to push my parents to help me to fix things ups with my full name.You see,my name on my birth certificate are totally different from my IC-I have no idea hows that happened.The worst thing is,even my dad's name is different in my birth certificate compared to his IC okeh!Im getting married soon,we have to solve this fast or there will be lots ans lots of issues coming up Im started to worry!

Some people suggest me to change my name completely,as my first name memang complicated.Im not sure,tho' I really like people calling me 'Iezan' as its simple and easy..However, I still believe I always born as 'Ampivia' no matter how much I hate it..=)

Hmmmm...

Questions!

2011-03-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

If only,someone cud give me some decent, non-disappointing answers about things in my mind now..

Finally delivered!

2011-03-22T23:38:00.005+08:00

(jgn la ade pecahhh once she receive the parcel ...)

Happy Wedding in advance,Lyn!

Everyone's getting hitch..

2011-03-19T08:52:00.004+08:00

So Aty,The Boyfren's lil sister got engaged to her dream man last week.Neither both of us were there,he's still abroad and I was stuck at home with my cakes work.All i can do was to send her some fancy cookies for her door gift.Yah,sound familiar rite?

Congrats to Aty and Fazly.The jokes around is still the same, "Abang dia bila pulak?".

Good question,bad answer.Aiyyyoohh...!

Yesterday,one of my bestfren Nadya and Mukhlis had their solemnization ceremony done in Perak.Congrats guys!They met at uni,almost the same time The Boyfren and I started dating.Sweet couple I tell you.Some frens who's going to their receptions later do text me to ask if The Boyfren and I are going,funny-tho' they knew he's still abroad they still asked the question.Sorry Nad,I cant make it...I'll make it up to you guys okay?

Selamat Pengantin Baru...

So,when?When will we both finally choose to settle down?Hmm......

(awak nak jawap ke question ni,Mohd Shakir?)

Quiz both The Boyfren and I took a while ago out of boredom.

2011-03-18T00:26:00.007+08:00

Quiz both The Boyfren and I took a while ago out of boredom.

Pls answer what wud your partner LIKE/PREFER.

(B -Shakir's answering what I like)

(G-Myself answering what he like)

*Coffee or Tea?

B : Tea (yes!)

G: Coffee (false)

Horror or Comedy Movie?

B : Comedy ( Yes!)

G :Comedy ( Yes!)

Chicken or Fish ?

B :Chicken (Yes!)

G :Chicken (Yes!)

Obama or Bush?

B : Obama ( Yes!)

G :Obama ( False )

Rock or country?

B : Country ( Yes!)

G: Rock (Yes!)

Entre or dessert?

B: dessert (Yes!)

G: Entre (Yes!)

Anglena Jolie or Jennifer Aniston?

B: Jennifer Aniston (Yes!)

G:Angelina Jolie (Yes!)

Quality or quantity?

B: Quality(Yes!)

G: Quality (false)

Babies or cats?

B: Cats (Yes!)

G: Cats (Yes!)

TV or Movies?

B: Movies (Yes!)

G: Movies (Yes!)

Doctor or Psychiatrist?

B: Doctor (Yes!)

G:Doctor (Yes!)

Shoes or sandals?

B: Sandals (Yes!)

G: Shoes (Yes!)

Sexy or pretty face/handsome?

B: Sexy (Yes!)

G: Sexy (false)

Woods or beach?

B: Beach (Yes!)

G: Beach (Yes!)

Football or soccer?

B: Soccer (Yes!)

G: Football (Yes!)

Adam Sandlers or Jack Black?

B: Adam Sandler (Yes!)

G: Jack Black (Yes!)

Lost or Heros (tv series)

B: Lost (Yes!)

G: Heroes (Yes!)

Hahahahahah!

Cookies for bestie,Nadya

2011-03-17T23:40:00.010+08:00

So I suppose to bake wedding cakes for her.But due to some unforeseen circumstances,I wont be able to bake it!(heart pain betul lahhhh!)

The least I can do is only to bake some cookies for door gifts instead.Seriously,I still have this thick guilty feeling towards her actually. :(

Finally done..200pcs of wedding couple mini fancy cookies.

Done the packaging-I was about to tie some ribbons at first,but looking at the time that I have,I just grab some dolly paper to seal the plastic,with my mom's help.Then I sticked some little sticker of 'Thank yous' on them.

The best box I can get..Teehee..

Couried to Parit,Perak for Nadia,together with one of my cakes stand for her to lend.

She texted me a while ago to tell me that she've received the parcels.Pheeewww!

Alhamdulillah no damage found.Glad she loves the cookies! =)

Tomorrow I have another cookies to deliver.Its for my sweety blogger fren,Zuhaslinda.

*Excited!

Well,I cant be there on their wedding day,so the cookies sort off like wedding gifts from me to them...=)

Today

2011-03-11T22:47:00.002+08:00

Thoughts are with Japan, hope everyone's loved ones are all right.

Praying for all my family members,relatives and friends in Sabah too..

World is about to come to it's end.

Whenever I'm angry with my man,I'll tune this on~

2011-03-09T00:18:00.006+08:00

I'm talkin' bout love
All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through
My boyfriend he don't answer on the telephone
I don't even know where the hell he goes
But all my girls we're in a circle and nobody's gonna break through

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Im talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love, say you'll be my girls for life
Girls for life~

Oh hold up, I need another one
I think you, you do too
Grab my bag, got my own money
Don't need any man in this room
My boyfriend he'll be calling me now anytime
I need all my girls to keep him off my mind
So hold up we need another one
What we got is all good

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,LO
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talking bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love
I'm talkin' bout love

Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do

LIfe

2011-03-08T11:48:00.003+08:00

Tho' its too heavy for you to carry on,you still force and drag yourself hard to do it.

Is it because you have no choice?

No,its because you don't want anyone else to get hurt.

Funny how those people doesn't mind if you're the one who gets hurt.

Distance

2011-03-05T10:15:00.004+08:00

*Distance*

There we go again...

Pls do not put me under the spotlight.Im just not ready..

2011-03-03T11:24:00.005+08:00

#Pls do not put me under the spotlight.Im just not ready..

Im bored.

Im super bored.Not that I have nothing to do,I just dunt have the mood.Maybe I just need to settle those dirty laundry quick,clean up the bakery station and my room abit,bring out those garbage,have a good hot bath,do my hair and go out alone again.Maybe a movie again.Or go to somewhere peaceful to read.

Or maybe I shud go for a break alone.Kl or Spore for a couple of days.

I need to clear up my mind.

Damn people please stop asking me to get married faster I'm going to explode with this pressure.

Babi la they all.

Movie Marathon Day?

2011-03-01T11:31:00.003+08:00

So yes,it's his Bday and he's not here.Its super weird,yesteryears we used to take leave and spent the whole day together-or go for a short trip or something..And he's not here with me this year.So since I was free from any baking job(or shud I say I procastinate?),need a break and wants to have sometime alone..Put on my fave dress,curled my hair then went to JB City Square for some movie.

Reached JBCS at around 2pm,went straight to the cinema and bought my ticket,Burlesque screening at 4.30pm.Went to lepak at the MPH for almost 1 hour,bought myself 'Twenties Girl' by Sophie Kinsella and a Wedding Cake Decorating book from Alan Dunn.

I was starving,went to Oldtown White Coffee for a bite..As usual,ordered White Coffee and some Rice.Nice!The food came abit late,thank God I have a new book to kill times.

So Burlesque was fab,for some moment I suddenly wants to be a singer!Hahaha..After the movie finish,I was suppose to meet up my sis at TGi Fridays to lepak but she called to inform something else came up.Called my lil bro to gimme a company for dinner but he was busy too..Frustated,I decided to walk back to the cinema and bought another movie ticket and some food.Black Swan was mind blowing!I heart Natelie Portman,mannn! :))

Its his birthday!

2011-02-28T07:25:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Sayang!

Every year with you is better than the last..Im missing you so much,cant wait for this long distance episode to end soon so that we can gather again like we used to be.You know how much you meant to me,and my love for you grows and grows with each passing year because of..

*Your strength

*Your devotion

*How you are always 100% honest no matter what

*Your kindness

*Your smile

*The way you are always happy first thing in the morning when I am grumpy

*The compliments you give me

*The way you touch my face when each time when you're leaving

*The little looks you give me when we are around friends

*Your loyalty to me and everyone or everything that matters to you

*Your compassion for everyone around you

*Your integrity

*The way you hold me

*The way you liven up a room just by being in it

*How much you have taught me about life and myself

*Your intelligence

*The fact that you are good at fixing things or putting things together by hand

*Your zest for life

*You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what.

*I love that feeling of being secure when you wrap your arms around me

*I love the way you keep your cool when I do something stupid.

*Just being with you feels like I can defy the whole world.

*You mean the world to me.

Muachhh!Have a fine birthday sayang.Come back fast,I'll bake you your fave brownies!

Ipoh

2011-02-22T16:44:00.006+08:00

So im rite now blogging using The Boyfren's dad's pc.Jealous okeh,he got this fab flat screen and keyboard that seems to work faster than my fingers.

The Boyfren's back from Dubai for a short break(huh).So I reached Ipoh yesterday-had fab dinner cooked by mama-went out a bit of shopping with her last nite-wake up late this morning just to find out shes out for work already-kemas my barangs-dress up for day-out jalan2 in Ipoh with The Boyfren-had fab lunch-hangout at the Tutti Fruitti for a while( I was kinna eating the dessert alone;he wasstoo busy on the phone with bosses-cant she just leave him alone for a while-he's on holiday for my sake!).

We're going back to JB tonite(whatta short trip!).Ive got tonsa photos to share but left my usb cable at home.will sure do the uploading tomorrow then.

Gosh and I promised my male bff Azli who's havin his pilot training here in Ipoh for a dinner guess I have to cancel it.Damn he's soo gonna merajuk again!Duhhh...!

6 days for Thelil_Sweet

2011-02-16T01:11:00.004+08:00

Bismillahirrohmanirrohim,

Yes,it was just a small kiosk but we're super new so it was a big do for us. Few weeks back,when I received a call from my ex-colleague Sharon OH to enquiry whether im interested to join her to open a booth for Valentines Day promotions for Thelil_Sweet I thought she was pulling my legs.She was not,and apparently I said YES!It was indeed a short notice,but after I double confirm with my sis on the whole pros and cons,we just take up the offer without looking back.

6 days of bloodshed.I dunt know how do I thank enugh everybody esp my sister.We,basically my sis Manja(Ieda Woods) and I were the one who baked the cakes,decorating them,packed them up,bring them over to the kiosk and sell them off by ourself.Makan,minum,tido all ntah kemana.Manja had to ask mom to look after Naufal for the entire time,and plus,she still had to work 9-5 ok!She even sacrifice her lunch time to drive to our kiosk to help me out,drive back to her office and drive back to our kiosk after work and stayed there with me until we closed.We also have an amazing family who supported us,Mom,Dad who was running around like some mad man doing the errands for us-buying this and that-sending this and that everywhere,and our brother Ady for always being my 'driver'.:

Lotsa things happened during this period.lemme share some;

SWEET ONES

*Our Vday cupcakes,gift box was sold out @ around 7pm on the Vday eve and the Vday itself!

*Finally I gotta work with baker fren,Yatt from Sweet4Sweethearts.She made fab fancy cookies,also with last minutes advice by me but they all turn to be superbly yummy n comelsss!

*First person who bought the cupcakes @around 10++am was this good looking guy who was looking for a cake for his mother's birthday,was on his way to the Seasons Cake when he passed by our kiosk.He ask how much for 1 cupcake..stare at me for some few seconds and ask."Did u sell this online?They looks familiar to ones that my frens always had in the office?"When I told him we're TheLil_Sweet,he just laughed and ask me to pack 2 dozens for him."Oh,my fren Angeline just bought cupcakes from you last week,so I know the taste" ::)) sweeettt!

*A couple of journalist came by to interviewed me;taken some photos also;the story was published on Monday Im yet to get the copys.

*Most people stop by to ask "Is this a real cake?Are they edible?"

*it was totally priceless when lots of customer came back to get more cupcakes for their love ones after they bought the cupcakes earlier;even 1 customer told me "the quotes 'look can be deceiving' does not apply to u" :))

*We had some bakers frens stop by to visit,one of them is Kak Rai from Chunky Bites.I totally adore her sense of 'never give up in this field'..and shes very pretty too!

*We gave up hundreds of name cards;just for us to see tons of new emails in our inbox for future ordersss! :))

UNFORGETTABLE ONES

*We were advice not to publish,or even display any of our company name due to some issues with CS mgmt.I was kinna disappointed,as Ive aredi prepared some stuffs to introduce TheLil_Sweet to the world..:(

*We broke one of the tier of our precious acrylic stand during the kemas time :(

*We had issues like running out of dry ingredients,boxes and others.pity our dad for running here and there to get the stuffs for us.

*Some amount of cash went missing during hectic moments.

*My sis and I were too tired;some moments i almost cry dealing with my low blood pressure and my sis keeps on having her migraine.

To frens,BFFs,family,royal customers and everyone who came to stop by,the gud luck wishes tru email,sms and all-thanks soooo much for the gigantic support.This is our very first time doing a kiosk at such a big mall,we know we cud have done better but having you guys with us,we know we definitely will have a courage to do this again! :))

To my sis Ieda,thanks zillionish times for all your hard work,support,'kritikan membina', organizing the money flow,taking down every single details to ur note pad, pursuing customer to but the cuppies(i think u can be a great sales person too), sacrificing your time with your family,telling me off not to calm down when i was crying like some mad woman panicking and lots more.Hope this is a kick start for us,for our dreams and better future.(damn im crying so hard i cant type anymore)

To Sharon Oh for giving us the opportunity,we owe u big time!Looking forward for next project pls let us know early! :))

Thanks everyone for everything,till then!

-xoxo-

Iezan Woods

"Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant,does not act unbecomingly;it does not seek its own,is not provoked,does not take into account a wrong suffered,does not rejoice in unrighteousness,but rejoices with the truth; bears all things,believes all things,hopes all things,endures all things~ "

-Paul in I Corinthian

Arrrkkk!!!

2011-02-06T20:04:00.004+08:00

So i was busy at the bakery station all time-I did click on that 'new post' to blog for dunno how many hundreds times but something always came up suddenly, i had to just walk off from the pc....or when i was really free but have no mood to vomit out anythg here.Hessshh..

New update so far,

*well i was actually in the middle of cleaning up the bakery station a while ago then decided to take a break and blog.

*i am seriously missin The Boyfren sooo freaking bad-i keep on wearing his shirts that i took from his house last week.cant wait for him to come back.needin sooo badly to be in his arms again.

*i gotta stop thinking about someone in my past.i gotta stop stalking his sister's/brother's FB to see how is he doing now.i heard he's doing badly and i cant help but to have this thick guilt in me.No,you r damn wrong,i am not in love or fancying this guy-its just,i swear i felt guilty.i was such a moron to hurt him and for God sake-its the only reason why i wish if i cud turn back time,i'd never EVER give him hope and left him crash and...burn.

*im partially broke,the moneys's flooding in but most of my cash being invested for Thelil_Sweet's sake or medications.i dunt even remember when was the last time i applied any moisturizer on my skin as there is no more skin care product on my dressing table except for this serum for my nails and a foot scrub.i had to sacrifice lotsa things to make sure that im in proper medications so that someone wont be marrying a sick woman and end up ..hmm...not gonna elaborate that.

*i have no idea why cant i just give up arguing with mom when i know i just never gonna win?

*i also have no idea why cant i just say no and mean it when it comes to some a****** frens?

*my body weight is gaining and gaining by the days.check with doc he keeps on saying its because of the meds,and too bad i cant work out because of the blarrdy low blood pressure and keeps on suggesting me to add on somemore meds to reduce the weight(well obviously more $$$ has to be add in kan).Hampeh..

*sooo many ppl telling me im getting fairer-isit because of the weight gained?----eeuuu..tak suka!!!

*i still hvnt pay this streamx bill// i have no idea when r they gonna cut off the line*mampos*

Ok,ok dah..i betta get back to work,i need to sleep early tonite-had to wake up early for Thelil_Sweet's Vday photo shoot esok pagi.

Laterrrr...!

Tired

2011-01-23T10:43:00.002+08:00

And this week...Im sick again.huh..

Im tired of saying Im tired of being sick and tired.

Obviously my antibody is very weak-but does it has to happen on every weekend?

The Weekend off

2011-01-09T07:50:00.004+08:00

So its early Sunday morning and I aredi up.Well,not so early lah,i was telling myself not wake up early last since I stayed up quite late last nite.

Its kinna a 'cuti' week from Thelil_Sweet projects.As I told previously I only receive one order this week so Im very free.Super free until I went mad doing nothing yesterday!And nt to forget I was stuck at home since Thursday because of the eye infections!Thank God my sis came with my nephew along at almost 6pm to rescue-haha!We went to the bakery supply to get of my stuffs,bought some big cake boards,fondant smoother and big pvc mixing bowl.I accidentally drop my fave super gigantic glass mixing bowl on Thursday nite..:(

So after that we went to Starbucks for Dark Chocolate Mocha, Chocolate Cream Chip and some Hoc Cherry Muffin.Then we moved to lepak @ MPH for a while before we walk for about 200 meters from City Square where we park our car to JB Bazaar Karat.Besh giler taking a walk with my 2 years old nephew there-he refuse to be 'dukung'-so berlagak independent jalan like some orang besar!Haha..We dint buy much-tho we saw lotsa nice thing s we like as we cant tolerate the crowds!Walked back to CS,we then drive for dinner to Benafe warung where we had Nasi Ayam Penyek.(OK,gentle reminder-we shud never order 2 plates for each one of us the Nasi Ayam Penyek without the guys around-makan sorang x habis sayang je!)

Reach home at almost 12am I guess then YM with The Boyfren until I fall asleep...

So I have this couple of issues lingering//Im a bit rigid;

*Wee hours*

~Im having this problem where almost everyday lately I had to wake up at really early morning(normally between 4am-6am) to pee.Isit normal?Is personally irritating for me-as its not only 1 time but sometimes for more than couple of times in 1 day.Tried to browse for any kinna symptoms that might be relate to it but dint find anything substance about this.Any of u got any idea about this thing?

*Copy Cats*

~So we've been this situation lately..We received some disputes from some frens how their frens feel cheated by TheLil_Sweet.They ordered cupcakes from us but the goods received was not like the one they saw from our photos albums.The the taste fo the cakes was terrible too-they end up just throw them!:(

After we investigate with the customer..Its wasnt us who takes the order but dunno which joker!So this two customers put on a comments at our FB fan page on which cupcakes they like,then someone called them up to arrange for the order n delivery-apparently the price for the cupcakes also was slightly cheaper!We were wondering also;we did not delivery any cakes to that places on that day as we were packed with wedding jobs!So the two customers kena cheated not by us actually.The thing is its kinna spoil Thelil_Sweet's reputation and it bothers us a bit lah.

And we also saw some of our signature design being copied by some other senior bakers.Well we knew its adat la kan..Its an open sky so we cant escape from people to mirror aour designs(well proud jugak okay they use to call us 'budak hingusan' but our creation jugak they copied)But the thing is-this champions used to tell us off how the method that we used was not good for edible cakes(satin ribbons on cakes/fresh flowers to go as a decorations) and now they are using those on their cakes exactly like how we did!Hahaha..Some really went to the extend of copying the exact design of our cakes!talk about them having diploma of sugar arts..*lame*

Well..Like my sis said,let them do what they want lah,its part and partial being in this business we had to be strong.I redha je lah...

I need thisssssssssssssssss!

2011-01-08T17:12:00.001+08:00

Saturday what?

2011-01-08T16:56:00.004+08:00

Uh..Its super bored staying at home on Saturday!The sakit mata all to be blame-no one want to take me out!

Cant even open my right eyes yesterday..

At least better a bit today...Aiyohhh..!Me need some fresh air!

All I can do is to YM with this chap instead,as he's not working too today...

Gosh I need Starbucks badly,or Tutti Fruitti.

Who can help me with those?

2011-01-07T17:13:00.004+08:00

Sikit-sikit...

Kan...lama-lama dah jadi bukit...!

Aiyyohhhhhh....!Im hopelesss!!

Mata saya bengak!Sakitttt!

2011-01-07T05:24:00.005+08:00

So its almost 6am,Ive been up since 4 and my eyes dint gets any better.Imma go to the clinic first thing in the morning then..Urgh,the pain is tremendously sensational,man!Effeeeee!!!

So it Friday today and how terrifiying to know that I only have 1 project for Thelil_Sweet and to add the icing on the cake- I AM NOW JOBLESS!

Had a couple of job offer but had to turn down the offer due to some personal reasons.And I'm applying this one post at a financial company,went for the 1st interview-seems promising but they called me the other day to inform me to hang on for a second interview as the head of the department wants to see me personally and he's currently abroad.And only will be back at the end of January!

Aiiyohhh!Seriously,I'm going tru a massive medical treatments now and it is an advantage that Im not working;Im just a bit worry on the financial part.Well savings is there but with this the fact that this current 'non-governmental' hospital where I'm having my treatments at-it is super unpredictable when it comes to the costs.There wud be times when I had to be admitted and the bed r damn bloody expensive even only for half day okay!Hmm...

Well..lets just hope everything will go according to the way Ive plan it.

InsyaAllah....

My bla bla story-

2011-01-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

I was fooling around just now watching Youtube when I came across this song; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0YGNqIS-Ec (Ketulusan Hati-Anuar Zain).Remind me soo much to this someone who used to dedicate this song to me.I often joke around telling him how 'ilusi' was the penulis lirik of this song;where got nowdays a lover as loyal as how the lyric of this song describe.And I almost lol when he said he cud love me like that-exactly like that.He even put on swears on the top of it. :))

So back then,I was sorta in the middle with this guy;very lovey-dovey typical Malay chap(no offense).We met tru frens,he called me seralls times day and nite,sent me flowers and chocolates every week to my workplace,downloaded love songs for me,had my fave song as his caller tunes for me;was there all time for me bad or good.I fancy this guy soo much,(lets call him A) dint really commit anything to him but we both know the chemistry was somehow there.

He impressed me by the days with his sincerity,me that time almost melt but still reluctant to commit anything(due to the bad-worst relationship experience i had just b4 i met him). And this A still there,most of the times he just simply adorably charming tellin me he'd wait forever-and yet I still scared to say yes to anything.

One thing about A that bothers me;he get weird at times;sulking away asking for my attentions.And Im not good at consoling ppl,and thats when argument happens quite a bit. But this chap sometimes trust me that much-opening doors for me to look for other guys-when I was determined to choose wisely for my future,dunt want to repeat the same mistake again.Yes,I kinna betrays A's trust and met...Shakir.

A made a big fuss about it when I confessed about The Official Boyfren.Well I dunt blame him;I'd do the same if I were him,but I have to choose whats best for myself;tho' Shakir and I are totally two different person but we somehow clique- I can simply be myself in front of him.That was I like the most. :)

I have no idea where is A now.He probly still mad-I know.Last when we talked on the phone and I apologize,he told me to come and beg him in person for that forgiveness.Zookayy,no wayy.

Well I hope,pray he will find true love someday.

The Boyfren and I had our ups and down.Am still indeed learning,getting to know him better and actually cant wait to be his wife.

I love him,no matter what and please help us to pray for some happy ending.I'd be one of the happiest person on earth when my first born baby later will be havin his/her last name as 'Mohd Shakir Beba'.

Amin..

Mistakes

2011-01-03T11:00:00.003+08:00

People do make mistakes.You,me,he,she~nobody's perfect.

But its how you deal with the mistakes that's make u a different man.

Some takes the mistakes as the end of the world-while some thinks to the positive way and stay alert not to make the same mistakes again then move on.

I disgrace those who looks at people's mistakes as point to insult/underestimate/embarrassed them.As if-they're some kinna angel from the sky or something-beautifully came-perfect.

Bullshits.

December photo stories

2010-12-30T12:36:00.006+08:00

Bday Cake from Mom & Dad :)

Well,its not really a Bday Gift-but since Startbucks sent this to me on December,I take it as my Bday treat loh!

No,No...am not trying to immitate anybody's pose/i was very sleepy at work and this is my last day of wearing the uniform/im gonna miss the super short skirt tho'!

I heart this sooo much!Safari NOSE from my sis n BIL

Oh no!this may cost her..!!?Thx BFF,luv it,luv it-ive totally dintched my MIU MIU clutch as ma wallet yg korang cakap besar sgt tu!

Gifts from me to myself-Hurm,well...arent they hot? :)) They looks absolutely gorjas with leggings and skinny jeans!

You can never disappoint me with Gucci fragrance!Thx BFF,this goes well with my Gucci Guilty!( i like to blend my perfumes)

Awww....how can i resist this?Thx Ashraf!

Cake slice from Secret recipe from my sis-soo yummy!My lil bro got me another 2 slices,American Brownie and Cheese Choc.

Victorian! :) dint manage to upload the other 2 baju-they're in laundry~

Recent job/i lurrrve purple and the rose buds details!

Pretty December

2010-12-30T11:57:00.003+08:00

So,finally Im blogging peacefully in my room without any phone calls coming and stack of paperwork need to settle.Relief.

And this is like the busiest December for me.Loads of gud things happened btw,I always call December is the month to give more and to indulge/its my Bday month!

Tho its kinna weird not having Shakir around on my Bday.He usually take me out atleast for a dinner and buys me great stuffs.This year,received many fab gift on the big 22nd-Bff G gave me Gucci Envy Me(like,like!faint!),Mulberry Hobo bag from Ashraf (OMG i almost faint!),Three dress of East India & Somerset Bay from BFF Liz n Rzai,A fab safari NOSE bag from my sis,a stunning dinner clutch from my TZRH office mates,a sweet LV wallet from Yan(OMG i finally have an LV,luv,luv!)

Bought my self some gift also.Wedges from Aldo and Vincci(fab,fab,fab!) :))

Mom,Dad bought me a yummy black forest cake (yay this year i got a cake!!) while sis n bro got me 3 diff slices from Secret Recipe~Im blessed.

And someone gonbe back soon,i wonder what he got for me.He owes me quite a lot/and a big cake! :P

Ok,think i gotta cut this short as I need to start baking.Its the last project of the year I want this

to be perfect!

Laterrrr!

It has come to the end..

2010-12-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

So every of the beginnings will come with some lil ending.Just that not every ending will come with all those fancy smashy happiness.

And mine happen to be...blah,blah..whatever.

ah,whatever lah...!

Im relief,by the way.

If its happen to be the other way round...

2010-12-14T00:21:00.003+08:00

Andainya ada di antara kita nanti
Berubah hala serta memungkiri janji
Jangan ada benci
Suka dan duka dilalui
Jadikan kenangan di sudut hati

Andainya cita-cita tidak kesampaian
Ikatan murni terputus di pertengahan
Jangan dikesalkan
Jangan lantaran kegagalan
Kita saling berdendam saling bermusuhan

Ungkit-mengungkiti
Sakit-menyakiti
Memusnahkan diri

Kita harus tabah dan bersedia
Cekal hadapi kemungkinan yang tiba
Kadangkala yang berlaku
Di luar kemahuan kau dan aku
Di sudut hati

//came across this song-touch ma heart to every bit~

Morning!

2010-12-11T08:25:00.002+08:00

Wow,I'm in morning shift-wake up as early as 5am,drink milk coffee,put on make up,pin up my hair,put on my uniform and wear socks.

Most people suprise to see me in the morning.Its odd-and I'm super sleepy;normally this is my resting/sleeping time at home after my night shift.

And my shift suppose to end at 6pm today..Nowayyyy!I soo will go back at 3pm no matter what,I have a new wardrobe shopping to do today-come so what ever!

And guess what,we have 2 new mgmt trainee will be having their so call 'training' in our dept and seems like I'll be the one with the tail today-purrfect.Whatever it is,I need to go back @3pm on the dot today if not I'll MC tomorrow.

Dekat di hati?

2010-12-08T02:34:00.002+08:00

There we go..we hardly can verbally communicate tru the phone due to the time difference and also the signal sucks.

Its not that long since he left but i already feels like its been forever.This is not the first time we stayed far from each other but I dunno;its totally different this time. Awkward,I'd rather say.

I miss being in his arms terribly.

Rainy day

2010-12-02T16:32:00.003+08:00

Hmm...been sleeping since morning after had really,really heavy bfast.Suppose to wake up @12 noon to bake,the alarm clock menjerit @12 but i just continue sleeping;dunno why but mcm best je cuddling on my bed today..(look outside the window)Ahh..its raining~!No wonder!

its almost 5pm now i die2 had to wake up,few hundred mini cuppies had to bake b4 my nite shift tonite.

oh,no...and didnt i promise to errands with mom today?aiyoohhh!

mati,mati...kena bgn NOW!

When the sky is not at it's best colour~

2010-12-01T02:43:00.001+08:00

Ok,so I bake cake and work hard for a living,paying medicines to fight cancer.and im gonna work extra harder to buy a gift for myself as they doesnt have to come frm others.I'll have tht Jimmy Choo in my closet before i die,for sure-so pls stop telling me its a waste of money-I didnt even ask it from YOU.

internet in ma room wooohooooo!

2010-11-30T16:30:00.002+08:00

Huh,finally I'm no longer blogging from the office!Thanx to The Boyfren who make it all happen;my all time hero :))

So ya,as usual its been hectic.Its year end,i have big wedding cake job on each weekend.Its fun-but a lot lesser without The Boyfren appearance .Normally he wud be the one who drive me and my sis to the wedding venue to set up the wedding cake-now days my sis had to do all the drivings for us-which is Im sure its pretty fine for her but i pity her sometimes,she had to juggle her time between helping at the bakery station and all-she had a lil kid to jaga too by the way kan..

I went to KL last week to attend my lil bro's graduation-it was fun!Ok,i cant write much now as i need to get ready for some farewell dinner.Gonna put on that LBD and my new fab stilettos!

Have pleasant evening ppl,lots luv!

All rolled into misery

2010-11-11T07:09:00.004+08:00

I found myself speaking,thinking tru song lyrics too much lately.

Mixed feelings of disappointments,confuse,anger,love,concern, etc..

I sometimes grateful with what I have,or hate it for a bit.

Sometimes I wished I can turn back time,but most of the time I rather fast forward everything.

Damn I screwed.

STOPPPP!!!

2010-11-10T08:02:00.006+08:00

*argue with mom

*being compleasant;financially

*online shopping

*stop by/hanging out at the Tutti Fruitti or Starbucks

*buying inner wear too much-this is sickening hobby-no more space for them anymore!

*buying/wearing shorts and leggings.Need to invest more on jeans.

*buying/wearing 'see tru'/jarang white tops.Had enough getting lectures from The Boyfren n mom(they just dunt get it i look good in white!?)already.

*eat more carbs(makanan yg mengenyangkan as per dad) instead of junkies*sigh*

*get more sleep

*work out

*stop the nonsense thoughts that I'll never be able to survive when The Boyfren gonbe posted abroad for work soon.

Damn I'm gonna miss him badlyyyy!~ :((

Cakes story AGAIN.

2010-11-09T04:43:00.009+08:00

=>>So really,if u know me u shud be immune with all those cake story I'd be telling.From what I'm gonna bake,how I'm gonna decorate,what i like,what i hate, etc,etc..The Boyfren told he has never been involve with cakes as much as he do now ever since we've been together.Its so inspiring to know that he'd be able to explain to you the different types of icing im using in my recipes,types of cutters or cake decorating tools I'm practising,baking ingredients and he even can describes the different of moist cakes,sponge cakes,mud cake even brownies!He's such a helper during our hectic and heavy orders moments he really comes in handy!I once almost cry when I saw how patiently he's separating whole bottle of tiny weeny multi colors confetti sprinkles to it's each color just because I was making such a big fuss and panic-ing away when we run out of our pink color confetti sprinkles for a very fussy customer order.

So as usual,my days has been filled with my job at the hotel and also with baking and decorating cupcakes from Thelil_Sweet orders.And having the time coming to the year end,I happen to have few best frens and family member's birthdays to fill.I realised since I started baking,I rarely buy gift for their birthdays,I rather bake them a fab cake instead.Why?Well not that Im being cheapscake or something-I just believe everyone deserve a cake on their birthday and to show this people how much I actually love them,I'll bake them yummy cakes!:))

Choc Brownies Cupcakes with Chocolate Ganache for my bro in law.

Oreo cuppies for one of my fren,a beauty writer from local fashion mag.

Choc mud cupcakes with hazelnuts butter cream for BFF Sabrina.

Burberry inspired gift box brownies cake for my childhood since-BFF,Raziyan.

~ And having to plan for a wedding receptions once The Boyfren is back from abroad,(he'll be leaving to Dubai for work in a couple of days time,I'm talking about almost half a year okay, -probably the longest time we'll be apart from each other :((, sigh) I've been doing some research on wedding stuffs lately.Well Ive been subscribing the Brides mag once he pooped up the questions actually,hehehe...So,since we're talking about cakes here,how about some taught for our wedding cake for my side of reception dinner.Well the plan is to do a big Nikah ceremony at my parents house in the morning probably on Saturday (or Friday if its happen to be a public holiday) and a small receptions for probably 200-300 guests at some hotel ballroom (maybe poolside party?) or at my fave-est wedding spot (only if my dad manage to get the place,lah);Jotic hall at JB town.And yeah,tho I do bake,I super refuse to bake my own wedding cake.No way I'm gonna do that,baking wedding cakes cud take away my 'seri' on my wedding day okay!

So I want a simple but cozy cake and they must be a 3-4 stacked real rich chocolates cake where ALL my guest will be able to consume the cake.I totally hate the fact that people do cut a dummy cake on their reception ceremony-so fake!I dunt mind if their cake is not big or not be able to have a pinch or slice of the cake at all.But seriously, to be seeing the bride and groom cutting a real cake and feed each other is so romantic kan?(hahah/hopeless romantic me).

So my cake also has to be pure white fully fondant covered with light decorations.Not sure tho what kinna theme we gonbe choosing,but currently a combination of white,black and glimpse of red is soo my liking!

Been staking one of my fave foreign bakers page lately,Swank Cake design uber fab wedding cakes!Enjoy the view!(If only they're Malaysian!)

I'll be going for this kinna design if contemporary is what we're looking for.

And maybe some bit of hydrangeas,white roses or orchid as the center piece like the 3 above..How lovely for a garden theme :)

And some fur or bling2 elements if im going for some bizarre or fancy smashy theme.

:))

The next question is,who gonbe baking for my wedding cake?Have few baker in mind tho'..will be updating about them soon!:))

Hmm...Dream,dream wedding...

My Bora Bora dreams

2010-11-03T06:42:00.002+08:00

*gorjasness~

*faint!

*absolutely stunning!

C,mon Shakir work harder.U need to bring me here for honeymoon.Its okay i'll stop asking for posh handbags already.

My Monday

2010-11-02T05:38:00.003+08:00

Hi sayangnesss!

Okla..i know its been a while since I pot pet here I'm such a bad,bad blogger..:( huhu..things has been hectic,actually I did logged in this account everyday,read every of my BFF's blogs,stalked few people,hop to my fave bloggers but that was it.I seriously went blur dunno what to comment(tho got lotsa things to say;sometimes i scared i might be saying wrong things knowing my bad).Whatever it is,me/ still like this lah.No change.And Im glad they(the bloggers frens) dunt block me or something(what am i saying?see?!)

So today,(i lost count which is today n yesterday as I've been working on nite shift all long)well Monday I mean to be precise.I came back from work around 10am,finish at 8am actually but followed dad go to bank lah,buy breakfast lah,pay bills etc,etc...Then i mingle around with my nephew,ate like mcm orang kebulur(talking about 1 whole pack of nasi lemak with fried chicken with the fact i dunt eat rice that much/2-3 pcs of apam balik,some of mom's bihun and a whole pack of ice Milo)Haha..Thats soo alot!I was very hungry okay!Didnt eat anything the previous day because of too busy baking and delivering cakes here and there,plus cleaning the mess at the bakery,then had to go to work before even finish doing work at home i almost nak letak 'Bionic' kat my facebook name!(poyo kan)

I 'kedebumm' on my bed and went off to my dreamland of Bora Bora with Christiano Ronaldo(no kidding it was in my dream) around 11am maybe and wake up at 5.30pm!haha..seriously,thats the longest i tido for day time,as normally i had too much work at Thelil_Sweet baking station i manage to sleep only for 2-3 hours.

Took my shower,get ready in disappointments as The Boyfren just called to inform he cant make it to see me today. :(( Had to leave earlt still,had my to pay my phone bills and buy some food for my BByana btw.And I promised my body to visit Thai Odyssey for urut.

So i went,reached Thai Odyssey and get the consultation from the friendly and (very ) pretty receptionist.I agreed for half body massage of half and hour(seriously i nevr had urut before!and i hatteeee kena urut but my body dah mcm kayu mom said had to urut).My masseur greed me;shes a Thai obviously (OMG i will NEVER allow The Boyfren to come here for any kinna urut or whatever!shes so drop dead hot,soo putih2 with very soft voice!-most of them sooo like that too!).She asked me to lie down/I enquire if what kinna ointment she gonbe using she said no-only for 1 hour or aromatherapy using oil.She then explain to me the differences and making me agree for aromatherapy instead.

Tell you,this is my very first time but i dint fell ackward tho i had to strip and let this lady (actually)rubbed the aromatheraphy oil all over my body.It was very relaxing,the smell of the lavender oil,dimmed light and the soft music made me forget i am in the middle of JB city-some sort like I'm being massage at some posh spa near the sea or something!

OMG she even massaged the front part of my body including my chest!The best part when she massage my forehead;she said in broken English that my skin is VERY dry and she can feel that my head is very 'hard' and i must be having a big head ache everyday i shud relax and have more massage on my fore head or something.She even teach me how to massage my forehead to loose up a bit!She is very nice!:))

After more than one hour she finally say "Ok ka,finish already u can wear your baju and drinks some herbal" and leave the room for my privacy to put on my clothes.

Wow,i definitely will come back and book her.So i will highly recommend her!So this place is at City Square Mall, JB/3rd floor (Thai Odyssey) and her name is Dara.U can call first for appointments. :))

Well.i beta finish up my work now,dad will be coming at 8am to pick me up dunt want to make her wait again.:)

Hope I can see The Boyfren today.Been missing him badly and u guys know what- he's leaving to far,far country because of work soon for half a year we shud be really spending more time together while he's still here.;((

Later darlss,have a pleasant day!

**The AMPIVIA in ME**

The pride and joy of my Saturday

It is not that difficult!

Bridezilla on the loose

Spare time

Hukum Alam?

New year,crucial year its gonbe I know.

Bday month

Me and my toilet issues.

Feeling soo fat!No,I am Fat.

If only I can fly..

Mid life crisis

Nani's Cake story

All for (Puan) Hanani Rahayu!

Yang di tatang bagai minyak yg penuh..

The wedding issues

Sick

Cerita kosong.

Its the day.

Weight issues.

Things you learn when you're planning for your wedding

Major disappointment!

Dear Raziyan

Poof,poof!Pom-pom!

Love Week.

25 random things about me that u (maybe) wants to know~!

The bride's wedding journal

Babyana just gave me the shock of my life!

Shakir

Sewel kejap.

Recent work!

To whom it may concern~

Torn in between;

I have always knew.

To die for.

Anak Lembut? (Oh,my rojak post!Bare with me..Teheee!)

Henna?

Oh,baby,baby!

Nikah ceremony shoes.

Working experience @The Zon Hotel part 1

Hello,yes..Im still alive.

New missions

Why bother to dream big?

Treat for a lady that adore pearls as much as I do..:)

Dusting off the cobwebs.

Show me

Everyday shud be a moms day!

I SAID I DUNT WANNA STAY IN KUALA LUMPUR,DUNT YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!!!

Until when?

My pearl obsessions!

How inconsiderate can you be?

I sang this to him in my dreams last nite...:)) No,no....its was not The Boyfren! :p

How I always wanted to have every pieces of him,all to myself.

The Wedding false alarm-my deeply,deeply apologies!

*sigh

Never fails to make me smile..

I OFFICIALLY DECLINE I EVER KNOW YOU.

In order for me not to be call as overweight bride...

New chapter.

Pearly stuffs!

Bitter Heart,of mine.

Facts.

Apa ada pada nama?

Questions!

Finally delivered!

Everyone's getting hitch..

Quiz both The Boyfren and I took a while ago out of boredom.

Cookies for bestie,Nadya

Today

Whenever I'm angry with my man,I'll tune this on~

LIfe

*Distance*

Pls do not put me under the spotlight.Im just not ready..

Movie Marathon Day?

Its his birthday!

Ipoh

6 days for Thelil_Sweet

Arrrkkk!!!

Tired

The Weekend off

The AMPIVIA in ME

Distance